Spiritual Progress

How to measure the progress?
It feels like a never-ending process.
When will the anxiety end?
From one extreme to another—
it feels so hard, I tell myself.
After years, I notice a sprout.
A strange intensity stays within,
yet a calmness surrounds.
Even in anger,
I remain with myself,
choosing words
without doubt.

Observe, Observe…

People told me many times, but I could not understand.
I did not know how to detach myself—
that was the point.
When I knew nothing of observation, I was in the moment.
It was good, but not the complete truth.
A conscious effort was needed.
Kriya helped to learn observation.
After many years, I was different.
Even in unawareness,
something stays aware.

How to Observe?

Something bothers—
But I don’t know what.
Someone, tell me—what to observe?
Sometimes, nothing works.
It feels as if my breath is taken away.
All I want
is to feel it again.
Is that too much to ask?
Then I realised—
Change is a fight.
I stayed
with whatever was there inside,
trying to observe
What I could not observe.